END...

Almost 2 years now since my last update. I also don't know why? All i can story, lost thing happened. Really regret what I have done to her. Maybe it should goes this way. Although me also have lots of thing to do from now onwards. Maybe I list it in "100 things to do" before the end of the time.

Maybe I will write a hundred stories to explain my journey in this years. May Allah give to remember everything I gone through. I admit that I have some simptom of forget all the thing I do or promise. Even I can remember what shirt or what I eat yesterday.

People always say what we do today will be a history tomorrow. I need to write my journey  in hundred stories if I can remember everything.

About me & her, hard to told. All I know its all my fault. I wasted her trust, her love, her sacrifice & all her done for me.

Today 2nd of Feb. 2nd day of every month. We use to wish each other before. We use to remember today was a special day of us. The day we declare our day. The day I'll remember now. It was back on 2014, I ride her in KL. More spesific at jalan ampang, just front of ampang point. We just went back from dinner & we decide from that day we become closer & closer. I wish would repeat that day.  

I thnik to start my story from here. I know the are many sad stories, but I will try to do my best onwards.  Although I know my time ticking down & I remember that day was the special day... 😔

EMPTY

Feeling empty inside of me. I think its just the end of our relationship. I not blamed her for what happened to her. Its just in that came to her life. And I still wondering the correct answer why Allah granted the permission for me to see her again after all this 5 years. I know all Allah path must have a good reason and I believe in that.

I think from now onward I have to learn to live alone as I know sooner or later I will be. Just know. To live with all her memories. Many had we share together. What we plan for our future, I think it will be just memories that I will continue without her.

Maybe I will wrote here all the memories with her. So I don't forget it again. InsyaAllah...

Few days from Hari Raya, but I don't feel the spirit of it. Think again its just same as Raya Haji last year where we both had some conflict. As I just go through the day without feeling anything.

Speaks of Hari Raya, I will remembered one thing. Her aunty Lontong. She like it very much. And I think I will never had a chance to eat that lontong. Also remembered her father's Roti Canai. I admit one of the best I ever ate.

I'm sorry for my action. For what I do. I admit it its all my fault. Make her think that every words came from her just a nothing at all. 3 months gone just like that. Wondering what I'm doing in this 3 months until I can't fulfill all her request even I realize it just a simple thing.

I think its too late now even I had all that in my hand now. 11 July 2015. I will remembered this day. The day I do my biggest mistake in mylife.

I just don't know what will happen for both of us after this. But what I know, I will not give up on us. I hope it will be as before. I love this relation cause I know she complete me.

I will be not see her after this. This Raya holiday separate us. Even I said to her before that I want to call her that morning, and know I don't know the answer. Just can't wait to see her again next week even we not talk to each other.

I hope she will happy with her family this raya. Luv her parents cause very kind to me. Dreams to be in this family.

I do love her. Really love her. Tell me what to do to gain back your love. I know it hard but there a love in your heart for me, tell me. I do anything for her. Please don't leave me.

I luv her with all my heart until the last day of y life. 

BETWEEN ME & HER

02.07.2015 was a yesterday date. I was our 7th month anniversary since we declare it. There are so much date comes around between us. The date for our future, date for happiness time and date for sadness day.

A years pass when the first time I told her that I like her. Told her to be with her in for the rest of my life.

Just want to tell her don't give what her want most, for what her want now. Between me & her, I know that we love each other. I believe in that. Never say goodbye if you still believe on that. Never give up if you think we still can go on. Don't ever say you want to leave me again. The struggle we're in today is developing the strength for tomorrow. For our happy day together.  Try to believe in that.

I know it hard now but we have to be strong now for our future. I promise will make it happen as our plan together.

Tomorrow I will be not see her. Hope to see her smile again on Monday, and if Allah give me that chance. Fell something different lately but don't know why.

I luv U

DON'T EVER GIVE UP ON US

We can't just give up on someone because the situation was not as our plan. Great relation aren't great because they have no problems. They're great because both people care enough about the other person to find a way to make it work.

I'm really sorry for what happened to her this few days when it's seem goes as our plan. But it not. You had to fight through some bad days to earn the best day of your life.

So much to tell her. So much to do with  her. And so much I spare rest of my life just to live with her. But now it's will only come in my dreams. She told me had she made a decision. To leave me.

A whole nite I'm was thinking about her. Trying to remembered all the memories since I knowing her. Since she came into my life. Memories that I promise to keep in my heart for the rest of my life. And I will live with all that memories.

Good things come to those who believe. Better things come to those who are patient. And the best things come to those who Don't Give up.

I know it's hard for her to forget all the "words" that her receive. It's also not I want her to get.

Many things that we had planned together. Many things that we had done and shared together. I don't want to lose it. Maybe it hard now but believe in me, It will pass. Time will heal everything. As long as we happy together, I'll think it's good enough.

Happy together at some place where nobody know our name.

Just please don't give up on what we are now.

I luv her very much. I luv her till jannah...

QUESTIONS BY MY LOVELY PUTRI

I had the same dreams again... for the last couple of month I always dreams of my love Putri. But yesterday she ask me a questions. A questions that I never give the right answer before this. When her ask me "apa yang org tu pandang pada saya & apa yang ada pada saya?", and this is my answer - When someone asked me what I saw in her, to love her so much, my only answer was EVERYTHING.

From the moments we declare every 2th each month was our day, I promise to myself to make her happy even I know lots of things happened a long the period and I try as much I could to keep my promises.

InsyaAllah I will keep my biggest promise to take her to be my Beloved Wife soon. Now, even if I spent the whole day with her, I will miss her the second she leave.

Till now we still in searching the terms to describe our relations. I think the best way to describe is this word. Just thinking it while driving just now, " we are all a little weird and life's a little weird too. And when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with our heart, we join up with them and fall in mutual weirdness and I call it LOVE"

So much I love her
I'll be by her side
I'll be her companion
Friend & her guide

So much I love her
I'll do anything for her
As long as I care
I'll go anywhere

I'll bring her the sunshine
I'll comfort her fears
I'll gather up rainbows
To wipe all her tears

As long as forever
My love will be true
For as long as I live
My love is only you...

Miss her smile today... LUVE MY PUTRI

THINGS TO DO FROM NOW ONWARDS

Things to do right now is the things I should do before this. I'm sorry for my all mistake. I was born with this weakness. I forget all things I'd said and promise. But for know onwards I'll will keep my promises to her and will fulfill all the small and big things that I said.

8th of May - I went out having a lunch date with her. Just bring to someplace that we can't eat together last time cause opening hour getting closed. We had some rice and pasta with seafood. We shared it together and the best part was sit beside of her and help remove the shrimp skin for her. Although there are other things we do but its was a sweet memory we shared together.

When I say about small things that I promises to her, I feel happy when I saw her smile. She smile again although what we been through together all this time.

I feel some relief when think that I already done some of my promises to her. I done bring her to eat last week and bring her to eat Durian on our 4th Anniversary. What happened on our 4th Anniversary, I'll will story it later. I will story it as our belated anniversary.
Sorry to my lovely Putri.

And InsyaAllah today I will give to her one things that I promise to her long time ago... I hope she will smile when receive this thing.

I'll try to keep all my promise to her after this. I've wrote at some place to keep me remember all those small things. 

For our future life with her, I will try as I could to make her happy. Deep in my heart I can't wait to take her as my beloved wife. InsyaAllah.

I wish you were here,
Or that I were there,
Or we are together anywhere.

I love her so much, MY LOVELY PUTRI.
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ALL THOSE SMALL THINGS

It is such a long time not update my journey. I admit, lots of thing happened. Too many things happened to me and her. Laugh, cried, happiness and sad, all blend together in our journey. Its will take some time to write everything. But I promise will make it happen.

Actually I don't know where to start and how to begin the story. Like I said to many things to tell.

I think to start with a small sweet moment. She always told me how a small thing can make someone happier or sad. She do remind me several times and I always forgot it. But I promise to myself, from now I'll will try to remember all this small things that her told me before.

A thought suddenly came to me that in the journey of searching for greater happiness, we sometimes forget the little things that we used to do. As I do promise to her.

I'll will take the time to remember the all small sweet moments and things and remind myself not to forget the importance of those little moments.

I wrote all the small things that I promise to her before cause I don't want to forget again and will do as I promise time to time. And I will start my promise with making one call.

As for today until next week onwards I will feel guilty for what I said yesterday to her. Regrets it. I'm really sorry for what happened to us yesterday. Its not what I meant. Sorry for my actions and words.

It will be long week this time. Her at some place, me at this place. Can't wait to see her beautiful smile again.

I really miss her now. Nobody understands how much I miss her. I miss how much we used to talk and miss all the things we used to do.

I try to admit it to myself that I still feel this way. Nobody knows that I still wake up every single night thinking of her each day.

I still think of her for every moments and I really do miss her.

I would give up everything I have to be everything we're not. I MISS MY LOVELY PUTRI

ICE-CREAM THAT WE EAT TOGETHER

Today I'm just want to story about all type of ice-cream that we had eat together since I know her. 

There are variety of ice-cream. The latest was Baskin Robbin ice-cream. I buy three scoop of flavor. Mostly chocolate. We eat in the car when we driving to have a dinner at her hometown. It was tasty and I plan to eat that ice-cream again at the same place with her.

What I can remember the most ice-cream we ate is Magnum. We had eat Magnum Classic, Gold and Almond. But I can't remembered if we did eat the Double Caramel type. All of them are tasty. But we agree that the Almond was the best. If I'm not mistaken we eat ice-cream together for the first time when traveling south for outstation job. Of course we take picture of it but we agree, she will keep the picture. But that memories still in my heart. 

Time to time we change the ice-cream we eat. Next was the ice-cream in the pot. We eat twice. One when we just eat the Sushi King. The 2nd was having a lunch there. This ice-cream was at her hometown, Little Taiwan. The ice-cream was put in the small white pot. It's was a vanilla ice-cream and smash oreo biscuits. My Putri love to eat oreo. All I can comment here was we eat that ice-cream when our stomach was full and we can't taste the tasty of that ice-cream. Maybe someday we will went just for the ice-cream.

I was remembered last time we us to eat when our office was in heavy rain. I brought that ice-cream at petrol station and eat at office. It quite rare when eat ice-cream in heavy rain situation. She eat ice-cream ball. She said it was delicious, but till now I never had a chance to buy this ice-cream.

Other than that we eat ice-cream that was in our drink. What I meant is Coconut Shake. A favorite drink at some place. So far the was tasty. We also had it when we eat A&W drink.

All our memories and moments that we had together I will keep it deep in my heart.

So, tonight we plan to eat that Baskin Robbin ice-cream again. Hopefully we can eat it and enjoy that moments together happily...
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GET WELL SOON TO MY PUTRI

She's not well today. How can I not realise about that. I'm a forgetful person. She told me a day before. She got flu, some fever, cold and pharyngitis or we use to say as sore throat.

If can, I really want to take care of her. Take care her day and night. Take care of what she eat, drink, medicine, vitamin, take her from home to office every morning and drive her home safely in the evening.

I hope she getting well soon. She need to take some rest. Although I don't want the weekend to come but I think she need to have some rest. Sleep early and take her medicine on time. I know she not very like to eat medicine for some reason but this time please eat your medication. Please...

I just want her to feel healthy and cheerful every day cause I love to see her beautiful smile. Her smile that can make me feel happy all day long. Her smile make me become her SECRET ADMIRE for a long time. 5 years if I count. Never give up try to find her. Remember her every single day of my life. Remember her for every doa to Allah. If Allah has determined her is for me, please meet me again with her. Now she standing in front of me with her beautiful smile.

I promise if one day we has been together, I will at every second at your side if you not well. Take care all your need. InsyaAllah.

Just get well soon. Luv U...
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WEEKEND...PLEASE DON'T COME.

It's Monday again. The day I'll waiting for when come to worked on Friday. Before this I can't wait to see weekend but now I don't want weekend come... Why? Cause I can't see her in front me. I can't see her smile. Then I will miss her.

Weekend feel so long to finish. It's like the clock ticking too slow. What can I do. Just wait with patient till the weekend to go.

Today I saw her happy. And today will be a good day to start our journey. Thanks to Allah to let me see her again today. To see her beautiful smile. Her beautiful face. Her beautiful laugh.

As I promise last week, will give a our favorite chocolate for her morning breakfast. Snickers. I started to eat this chocolate since I know her. I will be our chocolate till forever... I think so.

I want to say many thanks to for morning breakfast, Nasi Lemak that her brought me. I was tasty with the Dendeng Meat. Maybe I should buy again next time. And share with her. Sorry to her cause she can't  taste that Dendeng Meat cause only me & her know why. Maybe there will be next time where we can eat together that nasi lemak.

Also thanks for the book that she gave to me. I never thought that she will brought me some souvenir from the book carnival she went day before. The book title was "Ketika Hatiku Ingin Berhijrah". I will read and take guidance from the book. Thanks for the lovely present. InsyaAllah I will keep the book with care. With all my heart.

I love her for all that you are. All that her have been and all her yet to be.

My heart is and always will be yours.

I will never give up on someone I can't go a day without thinking about. It's YOU.
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MY LOVE PUTRI - HAPPY 2 MONTHS ANNIVERSARY.

2nd of February 2015. It’s our 2nd month Anniversary of our relation. We're promised every 2nd is our day. Who knows time goes by too quickly.

7.15am that day I call her just to chat before arrive to office. And I know she will not be in the office today…since she take one day leave. And I also know that day will be the bored day. And I can’t celebrate with her today…

Who knows she told that will come to office that day and suddenly I feel happy. She ask if I want to go breakfast with her. Of course I do. We plan to meet at some place that me and her already went together. And we continue to talk and I know she very excited to story what happened last night when having dinner with her family. All the story she told just remind me how she having a happy family. Really want to have myself in her family. Really love her family. I’m just smiled listen to her beautiful voice.

But when we arrived, the coffee shop still closed. Maybe it’s still early in the morning. From breakfast it turn to our date. With office attire, she asked me to accompany her to buy something.

So, what we do is when back to her hometown. It’s was unplanned journey. Actually I really miss her that weekend. Really want to ask her out but I just can’t. I’m not believe at the first place when she told me she driving back to office. But thanks to Allah that give me chance to see her little bit early when I suppose to see her only on Wednesday.

We when to breakfast at unexpected place. It’s the first time I go and eat there. The view of scenery is beautiful. We eat some burgers, drinks some coffee, even I know the coffee she made much more tasty. Such a long time not having the coffee she made. Maybe another day. Just hoping she made it for me…

It’s already 2 months now. Since weekend I thinking to buy her something for our Anniversary. We went to Aeon and I saw The Body Shop. Just when to the shop and ask about something I’m looking for a while. I was looking that thing for a month now since it was a seasoning product. And I brought her that Blossom Lotion.

After that she brought her things and we went to have lunch. We decide to have a Taiwan food. We when to Little Taiwan if I’m not mistaken. It’s our second time we when here. We order some chicken cheese set, chicken salad and watermelon juice. It just to much for both of us to finish that. We also order our favorite Bonsai Ice Cream. It’s vanilla ice cream with oreo biscuits.

She want to go find something at another place. So we when out and drive to another destination. She bought something for her handphone and a cd. Song by Farid Sanullah.

Time goes to fast and I must sent her back. We listen that song while went back to her car. It’s a good song. And I like one of the song saying that “don’t ever give up”.

We must not give up.
Never ever give up.
Don’t surrender.
We must never give up.
No matter what.
You do what you do.
Keep coming back.
Time after time after time.  

I want me and her don’t ever give on each other. What ever happened, please don’t ever give up on us.

Unexpected day and thanks to her give change to went out with her on our 2nd Anniversary. We talk, we smiled, we laugh. All that will be our happiness memory and I will try not to forget that.

Thanks to her for accept that present and giving me that cd. Never thought that cd is for me.

Our memories and promises will be in my heart forever. What I want to say right now Happie 2nd Anniversary to you and I really love you. Deep in my heart just want to take you as my wife. That all.

I love u with all my heart and really love you because of Allah.  
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WHAT EVER HAPPEN, I WILL LOVE HER FOREVER

It will be a long weekend. I will not see her for couple of days. Today, even she in front of me, my lips became speechless. Don’t know what to say. No word came from my mouth to ask her anything about us. I suppose not to went out from home but my heart said just go and see her. Talk to her. Go see her beautiful smile. Cause I know only me know that.

Both of us know our hearts belong to Allah. Our hearts guarded by Allah. Allah has destined us to meet again because there is a good reason. Allah has determine the best for us. Patient today for a happy tomorrow.

Sometimes we do not get what we deserve. Then we blame fate cause too disappointed. While we do not realized what we get is better than what we expected .

Sometimes, it’s just cut me deep. I know that she had right to do what ever she want, to be as we plan or not, what she do, what she want to eat or dress, who she met and who she hang out. She can do anything without telling me. Maybe I too caring for every detail she did. I'm just a person that Allah create with some feeling like to know something, happy, sad, jealous. I believe love base on trust and knowing each other. Maybe just over thinking. Actually I just love her. That all.

I know she is in a dilemma in choosing a path to happiness or suffering. I'm just an ordinary person. I’m not perfect. I just want that she accepted me with utmost sincerity. Cover my weakness with your strongest. Make me a better man tomorrow.

I know difficult for her to accept me after what happened to her. Her heart hurt, humiliation and pain. I do not want this to happened. I wish I could turn back time. I know she need time to think about us cause decision made for her entire life.

Sometimes thinking about pain that I feel every day nothing compare to what she face all this time. I don’t regret what happened to me, even I die because of this. But I will regret for the whole my life if it’s happened to my love, her.

I just hope she accepts me. Give me a chance to take care of her for the rest of my life. To be my spouse. To let me be her beloved husband. Give me a chance to make her happy.

I know when both of us not together, the distance will keep us apart. But distance, no matter how far, can’t change these feeling in my heart. Her eyes have seen so many places and that heart has felt so many taste and yet she still smile at the darkest feelings and find expression in everything that’s coloured beautiful.

I hope she always remember me for everyday when we not together. Just like I said to her before, “ If there ever come a day when we can’t be together, keep me in your heart I’ll stay there forever”.

Just don’t ever given up on us.

I will miss her for this long weekend…

Just MISS U…

Just LOVE U…
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I ALWAYS BE THERE FOR HER

Our first looks at each other, our first conversation and when I first met her, keep playing in my time. Our first text message and our first real talk. I'll try not to forget. Never forget the feelings and how perfect everything was. We could be awake and talk about everything until the next morning, we could talk in the cellphone for hours without having any words left to say and we could just stare into each others eyes without saying anything. It was love.

We became closer and closer and when I thought it couldn't be better, she whispered the three most beautiful words in my ear. She never thought she could have this feelings for again. It was the best moment of my life. I was in love.

We talked about everything. We talked about our dream home, our marriage, how we will be after be together, our hobby, who we met, families, friends and some jokes. Then we laughed for hours about what we just said.

We just talked about everything and we laughed, cried and did things together. That was life. She were my life. She were the best things ever happened to me and everything would have been meaningless if she weren't in my life. I would go to the moon, travel round the world and count all the stars. Just for you.

We were so equal you and me, but different at the same time. We had something that other people just could dream of. I'll never forget how special you made me feel.

Every time I got a text message from you my heart stopped and every time I saw you called me I got a smile on my lips.

I thank Allah for everything. I'm grateful for having her around who never stop supporting me. Yes. Allah is the most loving. We can’t never giving up on what ever You had give to us. She need to be strong. Don’t ever bother what other people said. They will not understand our problem until they in our situation.

Allah promise to replace all our misery with a love story that we really did not expect. Allah will replace with life and happy feeling beyond our words. Just believe in that.

I know, there will be long way to go but all these, it makes me learn better. I learn better, I can think better. Allah knows what you do for myself and her. Allah knows.

Someone who really loves you will show you they want you, will prove that they need you, will remind you they love you. Will put you in the list, " To be in heaven,together,forever."

Just remember my lovely mak said to me long time ago…

“Semua yang berlaku adalah kerja yang maha Esa, Kita manusia cuma jangan berhenti berdoa dan percaya pada kuasa Allah. Bagaimana Allah mampu ciptakan pelbagai perkara berlainan rupa, sifat & personaliti. Begitu juga kebahagiaan. Jangan terlalu berfikir sesuatu di luar jangkaan, tapi jangan pernah putus asa pada Allah yang maha memberi kebahagiaan.”

The only thing I know is that I'll always love her, no matter what.
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SEBELUM AKU BENAR-BENAR PERGI...

Berikan aku waktu satu hari lagi
Biarkan aku bersama mu
Hanya untuk kali ini
Biarkan aku berada di dekatmu
Hanya untuk saat ini
Kerana tak ada cukup waktu lagi
Untuk terus bersamamu
Kerana tak ada lagi tempat
Untuk selalu berada di dekat mu
Sebelum aku pergi
Aku hanya ingin satu
Biarkan aku bersamamu
Untuk saat yang terakhir kali
Hanya untuk kali ini
Dan untuk saat ini
Biarkan aku bersama mu
Dalam sedikit waktu yang ku punya
Sebelum aku benar-benar pergi
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FEELING EMPTY

Everytime I look at the keyboard, I see U and I are always together. But today don't feel it right. Just separated by wall.

I can't describe what I'm feeling right now. I'm just not happy and I know that. But I'm also not sad either. I'm just caught right in between all these emotions and I exactly feel so EMPTY...  Feel like I've lost a part of my heart.

I think it's ok to be a little sad sometimes.

Trying to hide my feeling & pretending like nothing is wrong. It hard to stay strong when they don't understand what it feels like to feel so weak. I don't want the world to see me, cause I don't think that they'd understand. When everything's made to be broken, I just want her know who I am.

Until now I feel everything I say comes out wrong. I just wanna be with her. That's all.

Sometimes we have to fight for the things that are worth fighting for. Sometimes a good cry can cure what a good laugh can't.

I will always care for her, even if we're just in silent together and even if we're far, far away from each other. 

Sometimes I sit around
Don't know what to do
Don't know where you're going to
All I have is to be with you
What else can I do

Just MISS HER...

JUST A SILENT DAY...

 

It’s was a silent week. Very silent. Same like sound when I stay up at some place that many people think it’s dark. But I believe “sepi itu indah”. By the way, one day I also will be the resident at this place.

Both of us don’t talk as we use to be. And I still wondering why it happened. Seems like we never met before. What ever it is I believe she had a reason. A reason that she only know. Maybe I make some mistake that I overlooked for what I did. 

Every second I try to remember what it is. Still can’t find it. I know everything happen for a reason, but sometimes I wish I knew what that reason was.

I don’t know when it will be end. I miss her. Miss her smile. Miss her as we use to be. I’d rather be anywhere else with her rather than here without her. All I do right now is playing back a thousand memories, thinking about everything we’ve been through. 

And I miss to talk with her. Share everything together. And sometimes we feel times gone by to quickly. What I really missed is when we want to stop our conversation, me and her know deep in our heart actually we just want to keep talk until forever...
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SHARE IT WITH ME...WE NEED TO BE STRONG...

It's hard to answer the question "What's wrong?", when nothing's is right. I wish my book of life was written in pencil cause there are few pages I would like to erase.

It's a longest day of my life waiting to talk to someone I love... but I can't...even her just in front of me. Maybe she need time alone. Maybe she need time to think about us. Cause I know, me and her are complicated.

I saw the worries in her eyes but I didn't know what to say. I couldn't think anything to say that would take her pain away. So I kept on saying in my head, "I'm sorry".

I hope she will be smile again as I really miss that smile and her laughter. What ever happen I will love her as I promise. Last night I do ask myself why I love her?

It's is because...

I love her for so many reasons. Big & small and all of them are wonderful.

I love her for all the special qualities that make her one of a kind. The only one in the world for me.

I love her for the things her do that bring such special meaning to my life.

I love her for the silent moments when her eyes and arms tell me all I want to know.

I love her...just because I do.

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HAPPY 1 MONTH ANNIVERSARY

It's a month now since we declare every 2nd Dec it a special day for us. A day to remember till forever.

Today it our 1st month Anniversary.

Thank you for being part of my life. Thanks for making it amazing and worth living. You are someone I worth waiting for.

I hope that we celebrate more anniversaries together in the future. I always remember the moments we become lovers.

Do you still remember the first day that we met? Actually no words can describe how thankful I am that day. Seeing you again in front of me with your beautiful smile.

I just want you to know how much I've enjoyed my life with you all this time and how excited I am to keep doing so in the future.

We laugh, we cry, we fight and we share almost everything... Yes, we've had our ups and downs.

Thanks for coming into my life and for making the day special now and then.

Remember my words... whatever come next, whatever happen after this, I will be always beside you and I always be there for you.

For me every second I'm thinking of you. I will always love you till the last day of my life...

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GIRL THAT I LUV - PUTRI...

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Adalah namamu, Putri...

It's just a word. I love her because what she really are. I love her as she is. I really miss her right now. So far away from her. Another few more day. I just hope can spent a whole day just with her. Talking and laughing together while eat an ice-cream...

Just miss her laugh and her beautiful smile... Can't wait to see her again. Really MISS U...

SO THE STORY BEGINS

It like a dream come true when both of us vow to each other to remember that every 2nd December is our day. It was a day to remember. A day that for the first time in since i knew her… she said that she love me. Until know I can’t forget how she saying that word to me & I promise to my self, It will be our sweet memories for us.

I never thought it will happened that very night. Now I knew she also love me as I love her since the day I met her 5 years ago.

It not easy to knowing & close to her. I’ve to take the hardest way of my life to getting know her. Only Allah & her know what I’m gone through these day. And I’m almost given up to my life for what happened to me. But since that night, she gave me a word that make me strong and stronger to handle the thing that keep hunting me day by day.

I feel strong now. I will never give up on my life ever again. I have to be strong. I need to find a cure. I need to be as what I’m before. Now I have responsibility to take care of. I have to take care of her as I promise to her before. I will never leave her. Never again. I will be always at her side no matter what happen next. No what matter come after this.

Now I really fall in love with her… Not only to her. She also give chance to make her parents happy and chance to make them feel happy. Ayah… I promise to you that I will take care of her with all my life… even I have to sacrifice my live to her, I will… Mak…thanks give chance to brought you some present and give me chance to feel like kiss my late mother hand. Next time we meet I will call you “Mak” as I call my late mother before… Happy birthday Mak…

Thanks to her for love me. Love me as I am. Thanks for given me chance to be love by someone… love by her…

Even I far away right now, I always remember her in my hearts. I will always remember our memories. Wait till I’ll came back. I promise to take her as my wife soon… Always doa to Allah to keep us one as loving couple…to be as husband & wife with ikatan yang halal…

As long I live, I keep you safe… I LOVE U…
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