EMPTY
Feeling empty inside of me. I think its just the end of our relationship. I not blamed her for what happened to her. Its just in that came to her life. And I still wondering the correct answer why Allah granted the permission for me to see her again after all this 5 years. I know all Allah path must have a good reason and I believe in that.
I think from now onward I have to learn to live alone as I know sooner or later I will be. Just know. To live with all her memories. Many had we share together. What we plan for our future, I think it will be just memories that I will continue without her.
Maybe I will wrote here all the memories with her. So I don't forget it again. InsyaAllah...
Few days from Hari Raya, but I don't feel the spirit of it. Think again its just same as Raya Haji last year where we both had some conflict. As I just go through the day without feeling anything.
Speaks of Hari Raya, I will remembered one thing. Her aunty Lontong. She like it very much. And I think I will never had a chance to eat that lontong. Also remembered her father's Roti Canai. I admit one of the best I ever ate.
I'm sorry for my action. For what I do. I admit it its all my fault. Make her think that every words came from her just a nothing at all. 3 months gone just like that. Wondering what I'm doing in this 3 months until I can't fulfill all her request even I realize it just a simple thing.
I think its too late now even I had all that in my hand now. 11 July 2015. I will remembered this day. The day I do my biggest mistake in mylife.
I just don't know what will happen for both of us after this. But what I know, I will not give up on us. I hope it will be as before. I love this relation cause I know she complete me.
I will be not see her after this. This Raya holiday separate us. Even I said to her before that I want to call her that morning, and know I don't know the answer. Just can't wait to see her again next week even we not talk to each other.
I hope she will happy with her family this raya. Luv her parents cause very kind to me. Dreams to be in this family.
I do love her. Really love her. Tell me what to do to gain back your love. I know it hard but there a love in your heart for me, tell me. I do anything for her. Please don't leave me.
I luv her with all my heart until the last day of y life.
Feeling empty inside of me. I think its just the end of our relationship. I not blamed her for what happened to her. Its just in that came to her life. And I still wondering the correct answer why Allah granted the permission for me to see her again after all this 5 years. I know all Allah path must have a good reason and I believe in that.
I think from now onward I have to learn to live alone as I know sooner or later I will be. Just know. To live with all her memories. Many had we share together. What we plan for our future, I think it will be just memories that I will continue without her.
Maybe I will wrote here all the memories with her. So I don't forget it again. InsyaAllah...
Few days from Hari Raya, but I don't feel the spirit of it. Think again its just same as Raya Haji last year where we both had some conflict. As I just go through the day without feeling anything.
Speaks of Hari Raya, I will remembered one thing. Her aunty Lontong. She like it very much. And I think I will never had a chance to eat that lontong. Also remembered her father's Roti Canai. I admit one of the best I ever ate.
I'm sorry for my action. For what I do. I admit it its all my fault. Make her think that every words came from her just a nothing at all. 3 months gone just like that. Wondering what I'm doing in this 3 months until I can't fulfill all her request even I realize it just a simple thing.
I think its too late now even I had all that in my hand now. 11 July 2015. I will remembered this day. The day I do my biggest mistake in mylife.
I just don't know what will happen for both of us after this. But what I know, I will not give up on us. I hope it will be as before. I love this relation cause I know she complete me.
I will be not see her after this. This Raya holiday separate us. Even I said to her before that I want to call her that morning, and know I don't know the answer. Just can't wait to see her again next week even we not talk to each other.
I hope she will happy with her family this raya. Luv her parents cause very kind to me. Dreams to be in this family.
I do love her. Really love her. Tell me what to do to gain back your love. I know it hard but there a love in your heart for me, tell me. I do anything for her. Please don't leave me.
I luv her with all my heart until the last day of y life.
