It was too late when I realized that I was hurting my precious love. Even if her won't believe me, this wasn't the way I was expecting it to turn out. I'm sorry and I'm deeply remorseful.
I love her still and I hate myself for letting her go through all these pain. All the heartaches and the misery, she don’t deserve it. She deserve to be loved and cherished for eternity. I'm sorry ... I will try and not given up to make everything all right. As the sun sets, another day is ahead of us. I'll be saying sorry forever until she have forgiven me.
She used to be the sweet person. Because of what I did, it changed her entirely. I'm sorry. I'd be wishing every single night to have everything back to the way it used to be. I want to share a lifetime with her, I want it to be the way it used to be. As hard as it may seem, I'm willing to do whatever it takes so that she could find it in her heart to forgive me. I'll love her and would never ever hurt her again. I'd rather not to be in this world than let her go through the same misery again. I hate myself for that.
Day by day, I'll be waiting for her. I’ll be waiting for her to say the words that it’s going to be all right. I'll be waiting even for eternity. Until then, I will confine my heart in misery. I'm sorry. I'm deeply sorry.
Ya Allah, I always wish for perfections but my love to you will never be perfect. I'm sorry for what I've done. Ya Allah, thanks for this life. It makes me strong and makes me learn a lot. Ya Allah give me strength and I know You will always be there for me.
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