FEELING GUILTY
Just went back from seeing someone I'm not met for some time. Almost couple of years now. He look different and he told me that what I'm wear not change since our first mate. T-shirt & jeans. He know me. I'm for what I am.
Also for 3 weeks I'm not driving at night. Usually she will accompany beside of me. Tonight I'm alone. I 'll remember all our memories when driving just now.
First question from him - "where's your bride...why you didn't bring her. I told you I want to see her?,"... No answer given from me. Maybe next time...insya Allah.
I don't know how to told him about her. I'm just hurting her heart again yesterday. Feeling guilty until now. I'm not suppose to questions her action. Not suppose to told her what I'm feeling. It just a matter that not suppose to be think off...
I'm really sorry for what I done yesterday.
I don't know how her day. Must be tired driving to attend her friend solemnization ceremony. A little bit far to southern from here.
Sometime we don't need to say something. Just let it be there.
I miss her so much. I really love her....
My friend just sent his regard to her. He just draw our wedding dress. Nice with softpink & blue colour. But he doesn't want gave it to me. He said, " aku bg bila jumpa pengantin perempuan ko tu nanti", he laughing....
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