I had let down a person whom I'm starting to have feelings for. You have sent her into my life ya Allah, a reason I've wondered why, but as time passes, I got to know why… I love her ya Allah, I do... I would never ever would want to hurt her but I did. I honestly wish that this is just a dream and I would wake up anytime soon and hope that all of this never happened, wishing that I have never ever hurt her.
I would have been so blessed to have her as my wife. She can be a good wife, i can see that. She is strong, principled and she is not afraid to do the right thing or say the right thing no matter how different it may seem and that what I love about her. She makes me happy, makes me smiled everyday and at the same time, she makes me responsible, and asks me to think on another level, asks me to be a grown up in my decisions and that everything has a consequence.
I do realize that things have consequences... I have lived with regret all my life but Allah says 'la tahzan' don't be sad, He is ever Merciful, ever forgiving and honestly it is only because of You ya Allah, I'm still able to smile and live life as anyone else. Although deep in my heart only You know what I felt. Allah says to not ever give up on His rahmat or nikmat because it is everywhere around us.
I have a past, but i wish and hope to move on and dear Allah, help me to move on... help me to become better and thank You for granting me, blessing me with this one girl. A girl with a beautiful smile, who actually pushes and makes me wanna be better. I don't know what she will think of me now, I just pray that she would still see me as the person that she knows before.... because I’m still that person, I’m still that person regardless of anything and honestly, really, I do want to become better.
Ya Allah please give me and her the strength to live life as You would have wanted, to balance our life on earth and also the hereafter.... I hope she will not leave me, and don't give up on me, and dont ever let me give up on her... let her be safe, take care of you Allah and grant her peace and Your loving ya rahman...
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